hi. this is me, CK. a writer living The Idiot’s Guide to Stress. the blog covers a lot of ground and in its pages you’ll find everything from abuse to neurology, satire to spirituality…
i’m an Aussie of the female persuasion, in the process of picking up and moving to London for as long as it takes. the mighty morphing medical establishment has decided i have Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), dissociation and Depression (MDD, chronic, severe, etc.)
And these things tend towards the long-lasting, will very-possibly-kill-you-stone-dead-with-great-ease-if-left-untreated variety, unfortunately.
However, and i count myself lucky, they also seem to come with the strangely insistent, contrary notions that we need to be:
- more than the sum of our parts;
- more than what’s wrong with us;
- more than token participants in this game we call life.
Contact: catatonickid(at)gmail(dot)com
Good description and philosophy of life. An inspiration to others who would find themselves experiencing this condition. :-)
I look forward to reading anything you have to say. You have shared aspects of your life that I couldn’t fully understand about my own. Thank you.
It’s great to hear you say that, Taylor :D Making connections with people is the name of the game!
Hi CK, I SOOO appreciate your description of your attitude toward meds. I get tired of defending my use of them. Check out my blog if you like – its more about dealing with a recent tragic car accident than about my years-long battle with depression, but they each affect each other now.
cheers!
hi Jessica! cool. yeah, it gets like that. sometimes it’s a bit like, really, it can’t be *that* hard, can it? ;)
and will definitely check out your blog! thanks for taking the time.
Hi, thank you for the blogroll. I am very flattered. I will bookmark you so I can come back and read some more when not so spinning like a top.
Thanks again and take care,
PA
I like your blog; and I’m all for better living through chemistry, as I spend a lot of time in that world myself. Good onya!
babs
I have greatly enjoyed your blog. I love your “about” page as well. I am the same way with books…I love them…can’t get enough. Reading them is like turning on a TV in your mind, but it’s so much better.
Hello Miss, now i know more of you, good blog, and i see u know depression too, you are in australia it’s very nice now it’s 2.11am in french, i think it’s around 12. pm for you, in a moment it’s lunch time, for me it’s bed time lol…
I tell you bye for now and i wait others messages Kisses
well, i don’t like it.
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actually i just made that up to offer you a refreshing change. ;)
well now, how would it be if i agreed with everything you said? yes, i know, life is painfully boring as it is. no, i haven’t yet figured out what time it is in oztralia, nor am i ever likely to, so we can forget that. i’m glad the chemicals are on your side for a change, but remember that’s only a small portion of the cube. if you really want to raise hell in this world, you’ve got to rotate all the parts. don’t forget to sleep.. at least occasionally? and tell your father to stop looking at you, it’s getting cold this time of year.
I’m so glad you found my blog through BlogCatalog. I am adding you to my blog roll and to my RSS feed. I want to throw many creative, loving, life-expanding vibes your way, every day. I look forward to reading more.
@Lisa – What can I say but: W00t! The vibe exchange will be reciprocated in full. I read your essay in The Siren, and swooned with purest delight. It is the very definition of unbearably delicious.
Thanks for leaving a comment in my guestbook. I’ll link to you on my blog.
@Ofira – Cool =) Thanks much!
Glad to know you via BlogCatalog. Hope to be seeing more of you. See you around.
Greetings and lots of love from Malaysia.
Thanks for the lovely comment on my blog CK. And thanks also for the book reccomendation. :)
You have a very interesting, fun, informative blog. Your posts possess a lot of heart and soul, issues that make you think and understand that living life each day can be a challange, but also worthwhile. I feel my sites offer those same insights. I appreciate what you do and am glad that you seem to enjoy my stuff too. Keep up the great work…
peace,
Mike
Taylor,
Our son has what you have, and I write stories about people who wish they knew how to treat what you have. In point of fact, if one is not depressed in some measure by this era, one is not paying attention or is completely controlled by the Huxley Soma folks. You keep up the great work, and hang in there, lady!
Jim Musgrave, San Diego, CA
http://efraimzgraves.wordpress.com
I’d like your permission to link people from my page to yours. I too suffer from the very-possibly-kill-you-stone-dead-with-great-ease-if-left-untreated kind of depression but am not nearly as articulate as you are. Come visit and let me know.
Janna
http://www.wrestlingfaith.wordpress.com
Great introduction. I identify with so much of it. Thanks for stopping by and commenting over at my place. I’ve seen you around other blogs but this is my first time here.
I don’t know that I’ve read your about me page before. I like the last 3 things you mentioned that you’re determined to be.
Austin
I read your about you section..I appreciate your willingness to share with others through your thoughts and writings. I myself (found out a month ago) stuffer from depression and i managed by treatment, but not the drop dead-kill you kind, I have moderate depression.
Anyway, I really look forward to reading your blogs. Thanks for sharing.
BTW- my blog site is http://www.lifeandfaith.wordpress.com
Hi! Thanks for the blogroll ref. I saw your comments on my blog but I typically don’t reply, but please don’t think I don’t appreciate your kind comments, I do.
I’ve enjoyed reading your blog since I found it. Keep up the good work!
Hi. I miss you. I think of you often. ;) Hope you’re doing alright!!!!! Much love!
When I’m on a Bi-Poler downturn. I like to remember a quote that helps me to realize that it’s the striving that counts. I see by your posts that you a striver. Great to read your blog.
“The Evolving Soul Is Not Made Divine By What It Does,
But By What It Strives To Do.”
“Note, I say I live with these illnessess rather than suffer from them.”
… heh, I suffer from OCD, General Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Severe Clinical Depression and Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder – so do I suffer from? No, I enjoy every minute of them. *smirk*
Hehe – okay, sometimes you need to have a good sense of humor to get through things!
But I just started looking at your blog, and so far – much love to a fellow bibliophile!! ;) (Mmmmm, books – they’re my crack!)
Catatonic Kid…have added you to my Blog Roll..
TRex-
@TRex Thanks! I’ll be returning the favour shortly =)
Well hey there new friend from Twitter…..I am so moved and touched by your bio…your honesty..your willingness to share your heart on the page. I join hands with you in your courage to write your heart out…and I’m standing here (actually sitting) joining in with you to do so :) It’s kinda cool that only ocean separates us :) and it’s kinda funny that long ago powers that be thought to name oceans as if there’s borders in the water…no more there than in our hearts….here is to you breaking through any limitations that come to thought about you or your abilities….take it moment to moment..thought by thought. :) sooo inspired by you and eager to meet in person too someday :) hugs and peace and friendship, Tre ~
I wish I’d gotten my ass/arse over here sooner. Good stuff, CK!
“I’m determined to be:
- more than the sum of my parts
- more than what’s ‘wrong’ with me
- more than a token participant in the game we call life.”
Very nice :-) Consider yourself added to my blogroll!
Thanks CK, it’s a joy to read such great writing.
I hope the drugs are working well and you are having a great day.
You are an amazing and very gifted “kid”.
:)
You write very well.
CK, the greatest minds are always brought back down to earth by the anchor of depression. Otherwise they would float away to the stars and leave the rest stranded. Love your writing.
CK, keep fighting the good fight.
You are very creative, and obviously intelligent. Being intelligent can be very depressing, as you grasp the enormity of what is wrong in the world. I am glad you can also grasp what is right—medication that treats the illness. God bless you as you work through this.
hi cK, i only found this bc U wrote sth on my blog – ty btw – U write with beauty & strength, and with a line of strong men (and women, presumably) behind you. i enjoyed that image & i wish U many returns. ff
Dear CK;
Iam KK (K2) different interpretations by me and my friends. i stumbled upon your blog when i was looking for a fitting image for eternity… (nice profiel PIC by teh way, did u click it?)
Iam asphixated when i cant catch the drift of life or the waters and accidentally iam labeled GENIUS for reasons i know NOT. but sometimes as they say “lies travel half way around the world when the truth is still trying to stand up”. maybe iam just trying infinitely to stand up, Run and FLy…and KABOOM i FALL…
the greeks knew the horror of existence and they interspersed the symbology of a GOD MAN for a yearning to life.. i wonder if they were trudging the escapist route.. i yearned to go off into teh wild and hold a conference with the jesus, mahaviras, buddhas, gandhis, et al.. but i have frail feet …
the few god people flowering in goodness yearning to bring peopl to timelessness may be taking a beating in the times that we are sailing.. they say its a phase..
i had a indifferent ear and a heart that beat wildly repelling any light that shone upon me.. (it scares me at times)…i dont know or see any ropes that i can hold onto..
with all this and the intepretation which i suspect it not to be, i yearn for truth and a big jump leap into getting every human soul into timelessness..
TO BEGIN with i yearn with BIG WILL (with a slight fear that it may fragment me) to trudge upon and build CINEMATIC LANGUAGE that probably could catalyze all people into teh waters…
P.S: may be this was meant to be written to you, or may be it is trash.. i dont know. what do u say??
(if u even woudl want to reach me directly then mail abhishekj10@gmail.com)
P.S.S DO NOT SUICIDE, apparently its trivial..STAND UP SING DANCE MY LADY…