I can’t sleep for shit at the moment so I’m getting a lot of those eyes open at 4am moments. I think about blogging sometimes, but I feel naughty at that hour, as if it’s too stimulating and will keep me up longer. The good advice of the sleep people (?) echoes around my head: okay, you’re awake. if you are still awake in 15 minutes get up and do something boring, make a drink, read something non-stimulating, relaxation CD etc.

I find it oddly comforting that when I’m awake during the night people on the other side of the world, such as yourself, are just getting up.

ok, if you have had to step up or down on meds, usually, down, the zzzzzzzzzzz you get every now and again while detoxing.

or

like your brain getting the zzzzzzz like when you touch an electric fence…..so ya, I guess it would be like electroshock or electroconvulsive therapy…… frightening….

I meditate almost every day & no brain zaps. I can’t help but think of electroconvulsive therapy when you say that.

And here’s something else I want to know….. why do people put those fricking bean sprouts on those tasteless hors d’œuvre sandwhiches? Cute about the fairy floss. They stick between your teeth, your lip and taste disgusting. Another bright marketing idea….”let’s get people to eat weeds and think that it’s good for them” . Ya, right up there with that other shit…tofu. Give me a nice loaf of bread, good cheese, nice fruity wine…..and stop trying to make me think that other shit is what I really want.

Now, that I have that off my chest. The invasion of people in my dreams. OMGoshhh CK, I thought I was the only mental case that had people fucking with my dreams when I was sleeping too? Sadly, that this happens to you also, is somewhat comforting. Sorry.

I do have a question for anyone who cares to respond…..been getting brain zaps in the morning and again just before I go to bed. I thought at first it was a warning that either someone was or would be in fucking with my dreams. Then I got to wonder if it’s to much medication or perhaps to little. Thoughts?

If you’re gonna dream you should atleast be able to be invisible.. It’s your right..

I was wide awake at 4am too. I was awake at 8am too.. I’ve had 2 hours of sleep today(not last night). I can’t tell you the last time I slept at night. Its been well over a week. Maybe longer. And its starting to show. More and more irritable. I broke down and called the shrink. I go in next week.. ahh.. the days!

Sarcastic fortune cookies, eh? Like, “You’ll meet someone who brings you great joy in the next six months… if you can get off your ass and go mingle!” ;)

I find it very annoying now, how eating a bucketload of icecream just makes me feel ill now…

No weird dreams this morning but yesterday was a different story. The vivid, real kind (as opposed to your Mad Hatter’s Tea Party) where people I know and I are doing stuff, but in a very surreal kind of way.

Hope your day is a little more restful than your sleep!!